Have you ever caught yourself in that dreaded feeling that something is wrong with you? Immediately I start to think, who can help me? Who has the answer? Who can I reach out to at this time? Someone please just fix me!
Then I remind myself you are powerful, you need to make the change, blah blah blah. As much as we try to change the internal dialogue its not that quick flip of a switch.
Last week I felt so low and lost (thank you November blues), and of course all of these feelings were compounded by a recent move and lack of routine in my life. I decided it was time to get back to my yoga mat. And you may be thinking “duh you’re a yoga teacher aren’t you on your mat everyday”? Sure, I am, but that is for someone else. When us teachers are “doing the class with you” we aren’t present for ourselves. I too must schedule time with my mat.
As I stepped up to the mat (for myself) after weeks of not moving my body, tears started to pile up. Sounds crazy but I instantly found a release (cue child’s pose).
Our yoga practice is our tool to slow down, to create space, and get those creative juices flowing again. So yes, maybe Yoga is the answer! This is not a blog to preach to you to do more yoga, nah. But I ask you this, what is your “Yoga” what is that hobby, activity, or space where you feel a big weight lifted off of your shoulders? Sounds simple but the answer is usually to slow down and take a moment to listen to your heart.
Please note Anahata Yoga is not a therapist or mental health expert we are advocates of mental health through the practice of yoga.
Yup we said it, the dreaded word, the lets not talk about it…Panic Attacks.
It has been a year and the word of the year well beside Covid-19 has been “uncertainty”.
So many changes, so many ups and downs. And for some it may be the first time they have questioned their mental health or even felt that other dreaded word “anxiety”.
I’ve been struggling with my own mental health specifically anxiety and depression for over 10 years. And yes I do believe my yoga helps me manage it these days but you just never know when a panic attack is going to sneak right up on you. For me its that feeling in the chest where you can’t breathe, and its not the good kind “I’m so in love I can’t breath” its the “I want to run away so quickly but I can’t, cause I feel like there’s a 1000 bricks on my chest” kind of not breathing. OH YES. I’ve been there, it is not fun, and even worst the added nausea in my stomach when I can’t tell if I want to throw up or need to eat kind of anxiety. Have you felt like this before?
I remember my first panic attack about 10 years ago, I lost control of my breath and I was so stressed about a recording session I had booked (at the time pursuing a music career). I’ve never felt nervous before, but I had scheduled myself to work with a new producer who I only met once. Something in my gut told me I shouldn’t go. My brother found me pacing around in our basement back and forth, I built a up such a sweat and was almost in tears. Intuitively he just grabbed me and gave me a hug, I started to cry. I really couldn’t explain what had just happened. I thought there must be something wrong with me.
Sometimes there isn’t an explanation for it. And that’s the frustrating part family and friends can ask “but why” “what brought it on” and sometimes the honest answer is “I DON’T KNOW”
Why do we always have to have the answer? Well I’ve been teaching myself these days its ok not to know WHY, It’s ok to say “I don’t know” and its ok to not always have to explain ourselves. As our yoga practice teaches us, meet yourself where you’re at.
Anxiety looks different for everyone. For my partner its in her chest, for me its in my stomach depending on the day. Please listen to your body slow down, take a breath and remind yourself it’s ok, step away to a time that made you feel GOOD.
I’m thankful for this body
I give myself permission to not be 100 % all the time
I give myself permission to rest
Be Gentle with yourself.